sexuality...lets face it

Now i'm married, i'm 19 yrs old, but i look like i'm 13 or 14...if u are one of my friends you might say i look like i'm 12. But in my mind i'm not the prettiest girl in the world, i'm not the type of girl the guys would stare at walking down the street. So naturally i feel a bit uncomfortable when i have an alert going off "my husband is gone, my husband is gone." and men hit on me........ not to but rude, but lately it makes me feel some what powerful. So my husband is deployed, and don't talk to him often, is it wrong of me to out of nowhere want him the way i do? Is it wrong of me to want more of him? I married the love of my life and i love him the way I fell for him, but the fact that i forgot the one burden of being an army wife......you marry the man and you commit with him to the military...........i hate it! But i live with it. With all the drama I've been through i know i wouldn't want to go through anything with anyone but my husband. BUT ANYWAYS!!!!! I haven't had fun in a while. i'm wondering  why do i want more or more extreme, and why now...... couldn't it have waited to kick in until my husband came home, or at least the day before he's here lol. I don't know but i like the feeling. With him i feel like besides the girls......... i'm his world, even though he doesn't show it (its alright...i live lol). i just got to figure out how to hold myself down at least for 3 more months.......and the my bottom line.